You know those times when you refuse to admit you're wrong? Even though you are?

Or those times you really think you should be right? But you aren't?

I hate those times.

Or those times when you do or say something really stupid because your tongue seems to disconnect itself from your brain and keep blabbing and blabbing and blabbing while inside you're screaming at the stupid little man inside your brain that lost control of the tongue and thus let escape a huge variety of words that weren't ever supposed to?

Yup.

I had...an interesting day. It definitely wasn't a bad day. Nope. Not even close. I enjoyed my classes.

But I was exhausted.

And apparently that does funny things to the little men that run my brain and causes them to mess up.

Now I sound even sillier because I'm not accepting responsiblity for my actions.

Ugh.

I am accepting responsibility. I said some things I shouldn't have. I said them in a way I shouldn't have.

Then I got upset when someone reacted to what I had said in a fairly predictable and understandable way.

Then I got even more upset while driving.... and said more things I shouldn't have.... Oops.

I was behaving like a child and then got it handed right back to me. I deserve it.

I shouldn't behave like a child. That's stupid. And not the way to get what I want.

...

You know those internal battles that happen sometimes? They go something like:

"I'm grumpy!" "No. You're tired. Be happy. You can and should be." "...I'm grumpy!" "No. You're stupid. Now smile." "... ...I'm grumpy!"

It's so easy to be happy, but it's so easy to be grumpy too.

But...who wants to be grumpy? I mean really?

Not me. I like being happy.

So why was I being so stubborn? Because I was behaving like a child. Maybe preschool is bad for me.

JK.

I was stubborn, tired, and grumpy and the little men in my head lost control of my tongue and I made a mistake.

Now I have to fix it. But I don't want to. Why? I'm grumpy. And stubborn.

But it's only hurting me.

*sigh*

Someday I'll learn.

P.S. I am going to fix it. In approx. 15 minutes. Well, I'll try to fix it anyway.

How?

Not the slightest clue.

Moral of the story: Don't be grumpy if you aren't. It's stupid and childish. And only hurts you.

Yup. That's all. Cheerful, huh? Sorry. I'll write again when I fix this. Just had to get my thoughts out.

Not that they made any sense, but oh well!

Signing out.
Me.