Monday, April 25, 2011
Expectations
11:18 PM
We all have expectations in life:
How we will turn out as a grown up...
Who are friends will be...
What our job will be...
Where we will live...
How many kids we will have...
What school we will go to (or not, as the case may be)...
etc. etc. etc.
I think it is funny to notice (as a girl especially - as Best Friend would pointedly add) how much my expectations change depending on the situation.
FOR EXAMPLE:
Growing up - I loved Loved LOVED bossing my siblings around. I made not only my own choices, but THEIR choices. It was the best. I was in power. I was in control. I made the choices. I was the Boss. Woot!
Now - I love being the Boss... sometimes. :) The rest of the time I am perfectly content to let someone else make my choices for me. I want someone to say "Alright, be here at this time and there at that time" - with SOME liberties of course (i.e. I reserve the right to change my mind or choose my classes, etc.). But when it comes time to make one of those Really Big Decisions... ... ... I want to run and hide. So I do. I analyze the situation from every possible angle and quadrangle. I make sure that no stone is left unturned and no possibility uncovered. I know exactly what my options are from start to finish before I make a choice.
Unfortunately, and as I'm sure many of you well know, life is not always so clear-cut.
Lame.
Care for another example? Oh good.
I had a choice. Both were excellent choices. Both were very difficult choices and would provide challenges over the coming months. Both demanded my interest and attention.
However, I falsely expected that God would step in and solve my problem. He does that all the time. He helps me to make the right choice and guide on my way of life. It is happy and I move on and all is well. Go figure, He didn't step in this time. At least not immediately.
The problem is that I have such high expectations for myself. I expect myself to do well at what I do, which probably comes from always getting what I wanted (though I did work my tushie off to make sure I was worthy of what I wanted). I expect myself to attain this high standard of achievement and self-mastery and all around awesomeness, but when I fall short, I condemn myself and belittle myself and beat myself up about it. (Hopefully this doesn't sound too familiar, though I understand it's a common trait.)
I ALSO have high expectations for those around me. I expect my family to always love and support me. :) Ha. They seem to have gotten off fairly easy - but it's all a facade. They have it pretty tough. I expect Best Friend to hold me - which he seems to enjoy anyway, so we're both winning. I expect God to step in and help me solve my problems. Hmm.... That one sounds a little iffy, don'cha think?
Long story short (yeah, right), this is what I have learned:
I have high expectations for myself. This is good. HOWEVER! I cannot let my occasional "failure" to fulfill my outrageously high expectations to ruin my attitude and my feelings about life in general. It's not fair to myself or to those around me who have to put up with me. So what am I going to do about it? Well... For starters, I'm going to try to improve. I'm going to try to recognize when my expectations are unrealistic and see what I can do to improve myself without feeling like a failure. I'm also going to try to remember to take charge of my life - that it is ok to make mistakes, as long as I turn to God and keep Him close through everything.
ALSO! I'm going to love my Best Friend more and more every day cuz he loves me back. And that makes any day the best. (is that cute? or too much? I wasn't sure, but really really wanted to say it cuz it made me happy. :) I think it's cute. So there)
Signing out.
Me.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Easter Sunday
9:46 AM
Happy Easter Everyone!!!
Hooray for bunnies and eggs and chocolate and Christ.
This year, Best Friend participated in my family's annual Easter-Egg Hunt. We basically took the cake. We did awesome (especially since we combined all our winnings). It was very happy. He had a great time. Honestly, I did too. Even though I wanted to pass on rummaging through the mud for easter eggs, but oh well.
Then we had a delicious dinner w/ the fam. It was a great catch-up time. Loved it.
OK. Now I can go on to what I really wanted to blog about. Don't get me wrong - I wanted to share how much fun I had yesterday w/ Best Friend (and my mom and sisters - we went dress shopping. EEEEE!), but the main reason for writing this post is because I feel that it is important to remember the Savior on Easter. After all, He did live for us. He died for us. And He was resurrected for us, too. He loves each person on the planet equally, individually, and specifically. He knows us. It is phenomenal.
So... A few months ago, I found this video. This is an excerpt from a talk given by Elder Wirthlin of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I have to admit, he is one of my favorites.
Just watch it. Even if you don't think you'll like it or if you don't think you'll agree with what he says. It is pure hope. It is beautiful.
If you have any questions, feel free to visit: mormon.org or lds.org.
Sunday will come. Happy Easter.
Signing out.
Me.
Hooray for bunnies and eggs and chocolate and Christ.
This year, Best Friend participated in my family's annual Easter-Egg Hunt. We basically took the cake. We did awesome (especially since we combined all our winnings). It was very happy. He had a great time. Honestly, I did too. Even though I wanted to pass on rummaging through the mud for easter eggs, but oh well.
Then we had a delicious dinner w/ the fam. It was a great catch-up time. Loved it.
OK. Now I can go on to what I really wanted to blog about. Don't get me wrong - I wanted to share how much fun I had yesterday w/ Best Friend (and my mom and sisters - we went dress shopping. EEEEE!), but the main reason for writing this post is because I feel that it is important to remember the Savior on Easter. After all, He did live for us. He died for us. And He was resurrected for us, too. He loves each person on the planet equally, individually, and specifically. He knows us. It is phenomenal.
So... A few months ago, I found this video. This is an excerpt from a talk given by Elder Wirthlin of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I have to admit, he is one of my favorites.
Just watch it. Even if you don't think you'll like it or if you don't think you'll agree with what he says. It is pure hope. It is beautiful.
If you have any questions, feel free to visit: mormon.org or lds.org.
Sunday will come. Happy Easter.
Signing out.
Me.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Double-Date Night: Five Alls
7:22 AM
Tonight, my parents took us (Best Friend & me) to Five Alls.
It was magical. It was delicious. It was really dark and lit by candles and lanterns and wall-hanging lights (sconces? Maybe?)
We had a marvelous time. And our awesome picture proves it:
Tee hee!
Really. It was incredible. Despite our frenzied faces.
I tried to get some sa-weet pictures of the delicious food, but unfortunately, it was too dark. (I know that in the pictures the windows are open so you're asking - why was it too dark? Well, they didn't open the windows until we got our dessert, and then I wasn't thinking about it any more. So there.)
Nevertheless, dinner was the best and we were VERY grateful to Mom & Dad for paying to take us to dinner there. (It was their "Congrats on being engaged" dinner.)
--just so you know, the final bill (including tip) was $199. Yeah. It was epic. For real.
It was SO SO SO worth it and I would recommend it to anyone.
5 course meal - drink AND dessert included in the price. Yummy.
Mom had King Crab legs and they were some serious KING CRAB LEGS. Woah.
Dad had New York Steak. HUGE!
Best Friend had Steak & Crab.
I had Steak & Shrimp.
Beautiful. Delicious. 5 courses. Incredible. Tasty. Lovely. Pewter goblets & plates. AMAZING food. Great service. Right out of a Medieval storybook. Mmmm.
All around: Five Stars. Definitely.
It was magical. It was delicious. It was really dark and lit by candles and lanterns and wall-hanging lights (sconces? Maybe?)
We had a marvelous time. And our awesome picture proves it:
Tee hee!
Really. It was incredible. Despite our frenzied faces.
I tried to get some sa-weet pictures of the delicious food, but unfortunately, it was too dark. (I know that in the pictures the windows are open so you're asking - why was it too dark? Well, they didn't open the windows until we got our dessert, and then I wasn't thinking about it any more. So there.)
Nevertheless, dinner was the best and we were VERY grateful to Mom & Dad for paying to take us to dinner there. (It was their "Congrats on being engaged" dinner.)
--just so you know, the final bill (including tip) was $199. Yeah. It was epic. For real.
It was SO SO SO worth it and I would recommend it to anyone.
5 course meal - drink AND dessert included in the price. Yummy.
Mom had King Crab legs and they were some serious KING CRAB LEGS. Woah.
Dad had New York Steak. HUGE!
Best Friend had Steak & Crab.
I had Steak & Shrimp.
Beautiful. Delicious. 5 courses. Incredible. Tasty. Lovely. Pewter goblets & plates. AMAZING food. Great service. Right out of a Medieval storybook. Mmmm.
All around: Five Stars. Definitely.
too bad there was light behind us.... but oh well.
LOVE MY PARENTS!!! :)
Out in front. It's a hidden little spot. Search for it. Go there. Eat. Love.
It's worth it. And more.
Signing out.
Me.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Indexing
1:46 PM
I. Love. Indexing.
Am I weird?
Too bad.
I love it! I think it is incredible.
It is a really good time. It is productive AND fun. Can life get any better? Haha!
...yup... That's about it, actually.
Uhm... In other news... My computer contracted a virus that isn't really a virus.
And trust me, it is as annoying as it sounds.
Dad tried to fix it... Best Friend tried to fix it... Best Friend's brother tried to fix it...
Actually, they got it fixed enough that I could get on the internet again. Yay!
But.... now I can't get in any of my other programs. Crap.
So, I've stoled Best Friend's laptop until he can figure out what to do.
:) Thanks, Best Friend!!!
Signing out.
Me.
P.S. This may to you seem like a pointless post - for which I apologize.
But I feel better now. So there. :)
Am I weird?
Too bad.
I love it! I think it is incredible.
It is a really good time. It is productive AND fun. Can life get any better? Haha!
...yup... That's about it, actually.
Uhm... In other news... My computer contracted a virus that isn't really a virus.
And trust me, it is as annoying as it sounds.
Dad tried to fix it... Best Friend tried to fix it... Best Friend's brother tried to fix it...
Actually, they got it fixed enough that I could get on the internet again. Yay!
But.... now I can't get in any of my other programs. Crap.
So, I've stoled Best Friend's laptop until he can figure out what to do.
:) Thanks, Best Friend!!!
Signing out.
Me.
P.S. This may to you seem like a pointless post - for which I apologize.
But I feel better now. So there. :)
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
PhotosPhotosPhotos!
9:43 AM
Oh man. OH man!
I love taking pictures. Hopefully someday soon I'll get better at it.
It's just so much fun! and the beauty of the world is incredible.
As a side note... Elder Pearson (my brother) flew out to Japan yesterday.
I'm extremely nervous about it, but my dad says everything is fine.
Well, said Elder wrote me a letter. I saw the envelope and was thrilled!
But when I opened it up...
THE LETTER WAS BLANK!
There was merely the date written in the upper right corner. Gah.
What a bum. Don't worry. I'll get him back. He'll be sorry.
He thinks he is funny and just cuz he is in Japan he can hide. But he can't.
You better watch yourself, Elder Pearson.
I'm STILL your older sister.
Signing out.
Me.
Monday, April 18, 2011
A Tale of Two Movies
11:02 PM
So... I need to confess... There are two movies that I've seen in the last week that I have LOVED!
Seriously. Loved. Ask Best Friend. He will tell you. It's great.
Anyways...
One movie is older-ish (I think) while one is new (very). They are both awesome!
Movie number one: The Tale of Despereaux
Emma Watson (Hermione Granger in Harry Potter)
Sigourney Weaver (Avatar, Holes, etc)
Robbie Coltrane (Hagrid in Harry Potter)
Kevin Kline (frogs, cowboys, oh the characters are endless!)
Christopher Lloyd (Magician in the Pagemaster)
and many many others - these are just my favorites.
The mouse is the best. But the rat is second best. ;) But that's my opinion. And whenever the mouse is asked if he is a mouse or a man he says, "I am a gentleman." OH! It's darling.
The movie is rated G, 90 minutes long, and is definitely child-friendly. But despite its "in-your-face-let-me-tell-you-the-moral" conclusion, it is simply darling. It's a happy-feel-good movie and I was so glad to finally have watched it. *sigh* So happy!
Movie number two: Tangled
P.P.S. Something else to confess... I waited til 12:01 am to post this so I wouldn't post twice in the same day. I know. I'm awesome. So it goes.
Seriously. Loved. Ask Best Friend. He will tell you. It's great.
Anyways...
One movie is older-ish (I think) while one is new (very). They are both awesome!
Movie number one: The Tale of Despereaux
Oh my goodness. This mouse is the most darling thing EVER.
The voices of this animated picture are incredible. They include:
Matthew Broderick (Simba in the Lion King)
Dustin Hoffman (Hook in Hook)Emma Watson (Hermione Granger in Harry Potter)
Sigourney Weaver (Avatar, Holes, etc)
Robbie Coltrane (Hagrid in Harry Potter)
Kevin Kline (frogs, cowboys, oh the characters are endless!)
Christopher Lloyd (Magician in the Pagemaster)
and many many others - these are just my favorites.
The mouse is the best. But the rat is second best. ;) But that's my opinion. And whenever the mouse is asked if he is a mouse or a man he says, "I am a gentleman." OH! It's darling.
The movie is rated G, 90 minutes long, and is definitely child-friendly. But despite its "in-your-face-let-me-tell-you-the-moral" conclusion, it is simply darling. It's a happy-feel-good movie and I was so glad to finally have watched it. *sigh* So happy!
Movie number two: Tangled
*sigh* No one is really surprised, right? Oh good. Just checking.
Man. I don't even know where to START with this one. It was just perfect. So simply and awesomely perfect. Wow. I loved the story, the bad guy, the good guy, the appearing-to-be-bad-but-really-good-guy-who-got-the-girl (aka Chuck! woah...), the horse! Oh man.
Best Friend and I watched this movie for the first time together in theatres and together again just a few days ago. It was brilliant. Just brilliant. Everything that I remember in a good Disney movie. LOVED IT! :)
Well... That's about it I guess. I was just SO excited after watching 'Despereaux' today and then I thought of 'Tangled' and then... Oh gracious. I love a good movie, don't you? I knew it.
Well. Watch a good movie. Unless you're studying for finals... then finish your finals and THEN watch a good movie. ...yeah...
Signing out!
Me.
P.S. This made me laugh out loud. And I love laughing. And I love laughing out loud. Hee hee.
P.P.S. Something else to confess... I waited til 12:01 am to post this so I wouldn't post twice in the same day. I know. I'm awesome. So it goes.
Finals Week
8:39 AM
So... This week is Finals Week. The dreaded week among college students.
Thankfully, it means that classes are over. YAY! But it's scary, cuz it means that classes are over. Already? What?! Yeah...
I recently noticed something about myself and I wanted to put it into words, so I figured I'd do it here. May as well, right?
I've been kinda...down... the last couple weeks.
Inexplicably.
(10 awesome word points for ME!)
Well, not totally. In fact, Best Friend and I have spent lots of time (more than I wish we needed to) trying to figure out what it is that has me down. Yesterday we figured out part of it.
But as I was thinking on finals week last year, I realized a pattern.
Last spring, about the beginning of April, I got depressed.
I explained it away by saying it was cuz I was leaving Snow College - never to return - and therefore saying goodbye to lots and lots and lots of people that I love.
Now, maybe that's true. Or maybe it was the weather change. Or something completely different. I don't really know.
All I DO know, is that the same thing is happening this year.
I don't like it.
But then, if I've figured out what it is, and now that I see a pattern (depressing of a pattern though it may be) it gives me LOTS of joy and confidence that it was pass... in about a week and a half. Hopefully less. YAY!
I feel like that is very good news. Very hopeful. I will be (semi)normal again soon! And I cannot wait to truly celebrate summer as my normal happy self. It will be the greatest!
(Assuming I've found a job and I'm not bored out of my mind. Ugh.)
Signing out.
Me.
Thankfully, it means that classes are over. YAY! But it's scary, cuz it means that classes are over. Already? What?! Yeah...
I recently noticed something about myself and I wanted to put it into words, so I figured I'd do it here. May as well, right?
I've been kinda...down... the last couple weeks.
Inexplicably.
(10 awesome word points for ME!)
Well, not totally. In fact, Best Friend and I have spent lots of time (more than I wish we needed to) trying to figure out what it is that has me down. Yesterday we figured out part of it.
But as I was thinking on finals week last year, I realized a pattern.
Last spring, about the beginning of April, I got depressed.
I explained it away by saying it was cuz I was leaving Snow College - never to return - and therefore saying goodbye to lots and lots and lots of people that I love.
Now, maybe that's true. Or maybe it was the weather change. Or something completely different. I don't really know.
All I DO know, is that the same thing is happening this year.
I don't like it.
But then, if I've figured out what it is, and now that I see a pattern (depressing of a pattern though it may be) it gives me LOTS of joy and confidence that it was pass... in about a week and a half. Hopefully less. YAY!
I feel like that is very good news. Very hopeful. I will be (semi)normal again soon! And I cannot wait to truly celebrate summer as my normal happy self. It will be the greatest!
(Assuming I've found a job and I'm not bored out of my mind. Ugh.)
Signing out.
Me.
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- Nashelle
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