So... I realized why I've been so gosh-darn emotional this week (and last week... and the week before... haha... oops)

Actually, there are multiple reasons:

1. Hormonal imbalance. I'm not saying anything more and we are quickly moving on.

2. There are only three weeks left in the semester and although I feel as though I'm doing well in all of my classes (I even found out I got an A in my preschool class that was first block), it's still stressful and nerve-wracking. Finals could kill anyone.

3. Best Friend is stressed. And heck. I don't blame him. This is a big semester for him.

4. There is a lot of stress on the pair of us.

5. I feel as though I am not in control of anything. Not one single thing. My schooling is mapped out for me until I die. Actually, until I fill out an application for an internship. But even then, someone else will decide if I get it or not and then based on that decision, I already have two options completely lined out further. Also. I've been applying for jobs left and right and though I finally got one interview, I'm not sure how it will go. I don't feel in control of my emotions or my finances or my schooling. I know I am, and if I'm not then God is, but I feel very helpless right now. Kind of like the water in the picture - inexorably being drawn down by gravity. It may not be a bad thing - the pools are gorgeous - but I have no control over it. It's a little bit scary, to be honest.

6. Apparently I need to vent occasionally. I don't like doing that because I cry a lot and feel bad about subjecting the other person to that kind of torture. Unfortunately, it needs to happen. And soon.

7. I am worried about a couple of my friends. I won't say anything super specific, but I know that a couple of my friends that I consider myself to be very close to are hurting and struggling right now. And I can't do anything about it. That sucks. I'm constantly worried about them and want to help them, but there is no help to come from me. I wish there was. Unfortunately, all I can do is smile and be supportive and let them know I'm there for them no matter what or when or where or anything.

8. I am SO RIDICULOUSLY happy in my life. That means I am going to be attacked. I am doing what I'm supposed to and trying to listen to the Spirit and so I am being attacked. I hate it. It doesn't seem fair sometimes. But perseverance wins out in the end, right? I'm sure it does. It has before. Isaiah 41:10.

9. I am extremely blessed. This I am very aware of. It is so cool. I am reminded daily. And that would make anyone emotional. :)

*sigh*

It's time for me to be normal again. Well... 'normal' as I am. Haha.

Signing out.
Me.